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So first off, I love my internship. It is a lot of work and they are getting thier fair share of free labor from me but it is good experience. I consider myself pretty lucky because I am actually doing stuff on my own...not just shadowing someone or handcuffed to a xerox machine. We'll see how that pans out. I'm still scheduled at work a bunch which is really annoying cause Im exhausted when I get there and I don't want to be hanging around a smoky bar at midnight when I have to be up at 6am the next day. So for now Im holding out as long as I can and saving as much money as possible.
School is kind of scaring me. There is so much to do and there is always somthing to be reading, working on or writing so it makes me really anxious. In fact I really should be writing a paper right now.
Chris is moving back home this weekend. It is really a scary thought for me to have him be so far away. I feel like I won't get to see him that much or he's gonna realize he's better off without me. I know its stupid but it is scary to have such a big change in a relationship. I guess I'll just have to be positive and wait and see.
Well I guess thats it for now. Not too much new stuff going on. Maybe this week, somthing worthwhile will occur!

1. How old will you be in 3 years?
24…holy crap

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
probably?

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
the start of my internship with the G.B.I.

4. Who was the last person you called?
Lizzie

6. Who was the last person to text you?
Chris

7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Wes or Clay from work

8. What were you doing at midnight last night?
drinking after work at my bar

9. Parents separated/divorced/married?
married for a looong time

10. Last time you saw your dad?
yesterday I think

11. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
I woke up….it was nice

12. How many states have you visited?
I’m on my 36th I think---my Dad’s big on travel

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
flip flops or sandals of course

15. Are you a social person?
I love being around people but I LOVE nights in at home

16. What was the last thing you drank?
water

17. Favorite ice cream?
black raspberry from Brusters

19. Whats your favorite color?
pink and green

20. What kind of jelly do you like on your peanut butter sandwich?
raspberry!!

21. Do you like coffee?
its definitely growing on me

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
a lot…I carry around my pink water bottle all the time!

23. What do you drink in the morning?
water or juice

24. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
um without….or maybe…..

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
well Im down to a single bed now…so in the middle

26. Do you know how to play poker?
of course

28. Any plans for this weekend?
working and trying to go to the pool a lot

29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Im trying really hard to save money so IN

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
no…knock on wood

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
the atlantic ocean is one of my favorite places…I really like
Going in late fall when you need a sweatshirt on the beach.
Its good for the soul

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
aisle

37. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
not yet…..Chris promised he would teach me though

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
spoiling chris or having fun!

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
my irish clada ring---the cross my mom gave me I wear a lot too

40. Do you speak any other language?
decent in spanish

42. Who is the funniest person you know?
My brother, Grant

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
yes….Darby my rabbit

44. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
The Pina Colada song----I like getting caught in the rain

45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
my mom is saving them for when I have kids-- SCARY

47. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
yes…they taught me that on Sesame Street

48. Are you crushing on someone right now?
yeah I guess you could say that

49. Do you currently hate someone?
I try not to hate anybody

50. Why do you take livejournal surveys?
makes me think about what makes me MEREDITH

The move up to Gwinnett went smoothly and Im trying as hard as possible to save as much money as I can. I'm still waiting to hear back on my background check with the G.B.I. I've passed the polygraph and everything else...unless theres somthing Im unaware of, I would think the background check would go fine.BUT......Im still of course worrying in the back of my head that somthing will go wrong because school won't let me register for anything with the internship unitl they hear from the GBI...ARG!!!!! I just want to know already and get this stuff over with!
Lizzie left to go back to Ole Miss and I miss her sooo much. I feel a little lonely with all the DZ's gearing up for recruitment, all my other friends having graduated, Chris is working a lot too and now Lizzies gone!! I got to hang out with Jamie the other night and if it weren't for that I think I might have gone crazy.
Ive been having some really strange dreams lately too with random people from the past going all the way back to my childhood in New Hampshire. I guess its a good sign that Im remembering dreams cause it means Im getting better sleep. Unfortunatly thats all the real news I got for now...my life has gotten pretty boring! I'm off to the pool!

So I have not posted on here in 51 weeks...just short of a year since journaling. I had to even get my password sent to me from the website. There are so many changes going on in my life right now that I thought it would do me some good to start keeping track of everything.
First off, I found out I should be graduating a whole semester early! It would really save me some money to cut out a whole term of school and living costs. A lot of people think its a bad idea and that Im trying to rush through college. Ive even been asked, "why would you want to graduate early? Now you will have to pay for everything yourself." I guess they didnt know that I already do pay for everything myself. I love my parents and they would give me money if they could but they cant. So my apartment, phone, food, car, delta zeta, credit card and everything in between is all on me. I like knowing that Im responsible for everything and I know in the long run I will be better prepared for reality. It just seems like "being a grown up" is coming on really fast.
I am in the process of interviewing with the Georgia Bureau of Investigations for two internships. One I found out is with their "Special Operations" which I learned was GBI language for Bomb Squad. Super exciting but there are four other people I would be competing with for that. The other is more along the lines of what I would want to do in the future. The crisis intervention team coordinates workshops all over the state for police officers from different precincts to learn how to identify and deal with people with mental disorders. They are trying to educate law enforcement on mental problems and getting these people treated instead of incarcerated. I interviewed with the bomb squad yesterday and they asked me to let me know how my interview with CIT goes today. I really just want a confirmed internship and all this up in the air stuff is killing my nerves. Im just worried I wont get either and then I will have to start all over with a totally different agency.
Im moving home at the end of this month. It is kind of scary to move back in with the parents after nearly three years of being on my own. With the demands of an internship and my last semester at school, I will have to cut way back on work and way back on my living costs. Im hoping that living at home will give me the chance to SAVE money my last semester---putting me on the right foot for after graduation.
Chris and I got to go on two trips this summer. One was a cruise with his family to key west and the bahamas. It was fabulous relaxing and getting to know his family, I feel a lot more comfortable with them now. We also got to sneek away to florida for like three days with my mom and sister. I usually go for a week but with summer courses, work and money Chris and I only went for a long weekend. It was like a free mini-vacation cause my mom wouldnt let us pay for the condo at all.
So now Im back to cracking down on school and making some money. I only have a few more tests and papers before the end of summer school, and Ive been picking up doubles left and right this week. Good thing people have been understanding about my schedule demands. I guess Im not that fun anymore...maybe I would be more fun to go out with if I had money in my pocket to spend. Well, Ill see how things end up this summer. Ok so that was a long catch up entry but it helps my brain to write these things out. Plus I can update when cool stuff actually starts to happen.

So Im just about moved into the new place completly...and it is fabulous. The only thing I dont have is a bed, which is kind of key but I have to wait until Grant and Ash are fully moved in so I can get it...once everything is in though, its gonna look great

I leave for the beach this Saturday morning with mixed feelings. I love the ocean and I love being able to really unwind on the beach but I always get nervous leaving for a week. Whenever you get back shit has always hit the fan at work or somthing happened with a friend that you didnt get wind of. Last year out of 6 trips to florida, each one had somthing go down...like four people quitting at work, a funeral, a trip to the hospital or your dad loses his job. It sorta makes me nervous, but I wont be pessimistic. and ok, ill admit it, Im gonna miss Chris alot. wow, i never thought i would be one of THOSE girls but i will.

I get to go host an ice cream social now for Suntrust Bank Corporate office....woooohooo....lets see if i even make any gratuity off this--

Well i used to xanga but that caused some problems over the past year or two...but I was talking to Vanessa and she got the livejournal thing in my head...so i figured to give it a fresh start since my life has been pretty fabulous lately...

I feel like im gonna jinx myself writing about this stuff... cause i cant remember the last time i was this happy....feeling like youre just waiting for someone to pull the rug out from under you....its kinda scary, but Im starting to have faith that things work themselves out the way theyre meant to...

First and most importantly, my family is healthy and relativly happy. My mom hasnt needed anymore heart surgery and my Dad is stressed but because of work being busy. He travels a lot lately but its constructive for him. Grant has been amazing with the whole apartment thing. Im sure moving in with me is not the easiest thing but hes been my best friend my whole life and seeing him so happy with ashley does my heart good. He deserves only the best in life for everything he has done for me and lets face it...whos better than Ash??? My little sister Hannah has just been growing up so fast. It upsets me somtimes seeing her rush through these years cause i actually took my time through high school and relished every minute of it...but shes a good kid and i have so much fun being her big sister...

This summer has been fabulous... no other word for it. I'm a manager at work now so I get paid to do everything I did before which is always nice. I still have fun most of the time and i can kill on tips somedays. Trivia nights still occur with the DZ's and team "Just the Tip, to see how it feels" finally placed second!!! This is a HUGE accomplishment cause team "Dixie normous" ALWAYS beats us. My best friends all found the way back to one another coming home from school and we still have so much fun. Getting to see elizabeth more than once a semester is the best thing ever...and the summer is only half over

They say the best things hit you when you werent looking for them...i dont know who THEY are...but theyre right...Chris and I met at country fair this year and through my drunken haze I fell head over heels for him. Two sobered up months later I still cant get enough of him. I love the way we make each other smile and while we seem like opposites for one another it just seems to work....i dont even mind his snoring..yes im scared, and yes i realize that i may be in over my head but i dont really care. He is one of the most kind hearted people I have ever met and he makes me feel like a better person when im around him. My family makes fun of me cause im twitterpated (yeah i said it) --- my friends complain about being around us, but getting to know him and being with him is one of the strongest feelings...
and that really is a real fine place to start...